Elvis is singing Suspicious Minds and I am moving between rage and ambivalence. Nothing makes sense and everything looks exactly as I expect and the contradiction of feeling like I can see pieces fall into place but haven’t a clue how to stop bouncing down the far side of the mountain is…disturbing. I hear the… Continue reading You Don’t Get To Have Me
Sometimes Your Heart Is A Damn Liar
I’d blame the lack of coherent thought upon the raging war inside my belly or accuse the stacks of paper across the desk of cluttering my mind but neither works all that well. They don’t change the feeling that my arms have been chained to two horses that are straining to race on down the… Continue reading Sometimes Your Heart Is A Damn Liar
Three Steps Forward & Two Steps Back
I know what I heard and I know what I saw which is my way of saying I have ample reason to be in that place between fury and ambivalence. Having spent the past decade or so learning how very different life can be than you expect I know it is a mixed bag. Not… Continue reading Three Steps Forward & Two Steps Back
68 Lessons Learned From Cougar Wrestling
When you have been wrestling with a cougar for 13 or 14 years you quickly learn that you cannot always determine their true mood from the expression on their face. You may think you recognize that look and be certain it is angry, dissatisfied or happy and discover you know nothing. It is part of… Continue reading 68 Lessons Learned From Cougar Wrestling