Once Upon A Dream

The drive down to Austin wasn’t any different than any other time. Made my usual stop at the Buc-ee’s that is always busier than every other one I have ever been to and made my usual mental note to skip it next time.

Walked through the parking lot back to a rental car that I will try never to drive again and got distracted by a guy in a Tahoe blasting Once Upon A Dream by Lana Del Rey.

That reminded me of her cover Take Me Home Country Roads and Let Me Love You Like A Woman.

Those took me to Home, followed by The Man’s Too Strong and If I Could Tell You by W.H. Auden.

I remembered being on the floor in the dark wondering if this was going to be it, thinking that maybe it wasn’t such a bad thing. Remembered yelling at a nurse in the ER and then going to a private room and being told I was one level below ICU.

Remembered the nurse telling me I needed to promise not to get out of bed with help and how I never agreed.

The difference between accepting death and defying it seems to be thin and impossibly wide. I chose life.

The Chicago Way

This joint doesn’t get as many visitors as it once did but it still gets a steady supply of traffic from the Windy City. A mix of family, friends and strangers with memories find the words here interesting enough to spend a few minutes seeing what wacky tales I have woven.

Maybe we should cue Joan Baez singing Diamonds and Rust or Mi Shemaamin by Eyal Golan.

Been thinking about how much life I have experienced during my 57 years and realized I have lived a life. It wasn’t that I didn’t know it but the more I thought about what I have seen and done the more I smiled.

It hasn’t all been easy but it hasn’t all been hard either. There is a line in a movie that says death is what gives life meaning and there is truth in that.

Knowing you don’t have endless time provides value and incentive to get as much as you can out of the time you have.

I feel pretty good about what I have managed to do with the time I have, hasn’t been perfect and there are regrets but there are more good times than bad.

That is worth something.

Got to end this one here cuz there are other places to go and update. There are things to be done to prepare for what is to come and what is to come could be pretty damn big.

It is kind of exciting, so apologies for a post that is kind of disjointed but life happens huh. 😉