Someone asked me what Dislocated Fingers & Broken Colons Unite was about and I told them to read the post.
I suspect SQ might have an idea or two but I wouldn’t lay money on that cuz some people have chosen to go on an extended walkabout.
It is an interesting time of life for many of my friends as some of them have unexpectedly found themselves out of work and are actively trying to change that.
A few have asked me for my thoughts and I told them you have to keep pushing and that sometimes all you can do is fight through it. I feel like I have reinvented myself more than once and I can appreciate how frightening that can be.
It is part of why I expect to work another 10 years which doesn’t mean that I wouldn’t have had to if things hadn’t gone haywire.
But they did and that removed the option that may or may not have existed had things not blown up.
Most days I don’t spend much time wondering or worrying about it because it happened. If I think about it the reason is geared more to my asking myself what life would have looked like.
It is an exercise, nothing more than that and something that I do because I can see it help with story creation.
So I tell them all that I am ‘waiting for your call’ and let it go at that.
Got a bunch of flights in my future for a host of different things and realized that I haven’t flown anywhere this year and for the most part I am ok with that.
I used to love air travel but it doesn’t hold the same magic as it once did and in truth I don’t mind being a homebody.
Home is comfortable and I like having my things and my stuff around me.
But I also know myself and that I haven’t lost my wanderlust or urge to explore either. There are still times when I want to get out and see the world and find new places for new adventures.
Call that my way of saying my preference is to be in control of my travel and do so when and where I want to.
Since I haven’t found a bag of money, won the lottery or been made King of The World I still find myself going places on schedules that aren’t always created by me.
Most of the time I am pretty good at rolling with that but there are moments…
Someone asked if I was a good team player and I laughed and told them I am a bit of a contradiction.
“I am very much a lone wolf who prefers it when people stay out of my way and let me do what I do because I am very good at doing that. But I am also very good at asking for help when I need it and offering it to others.”
I am not sure if they understood what I was saying or not and not sure if it matters.
The younger Mr. Wilner and I had a conversation about some of this not long ago and I told him I try to hide in the open.
“Sometimes I want to watch and see how things roll so I can determine the best way to move ahead. But there are moments when I still charge ahead and figure it all out on the fly too. Sometimes I ask for forgiveness after taking action, paralysis of analysis can kill you just as easily as knee jerk reactions.”
