I have spent the majority of the past 14 years working from a remote office which has meant that much of that time has been shared with a furry four legged pal.
He joined the family around three or four years after the Big Lug ambled across that rainbow bridge they say our animal family members go to.
I got to meet him the day he was born and so I have known him his whole life.
We talk on the regular though most of his speech is either through barking at me or wagging his tail. We have watched the kids go from being quite little into young adults while he and I talk about our own aging.
Today I watched him go through two seizures and then hustled him over to the vet. I won’t lie and say it wasn’t rough because it was.
He is 14 and the doc couldn’t say exactly what is going on without engaging in a significant workup than what was done.
But he did provide some medication that seems to have helped but I know my buddy isn’t operating at a hundred percent.
Not Ready For That Rainbow Bridge…
We’re not ready for that rainbow bridge…not yet and I am not sure if he is either.
It is a rough spot not knowing as much as we would like to and not being able to communicate the way we wish we could.
He doesn’t seem to be particularly uncomfortable so this might just be one of those steps that come with aging and that is what I am hoping for.
But I have been down this road with the dogs that preceded him so some of this is more familiar than I want it to be. I recognize some signs and wonder.
He is a little guy and they tend to stick around a bit longer but still it is hard to say. So we’ll keep a collective eye upon him and try to see if today was just a hiccup or something bigger.
I almost hesitate to write about it but it also feels appropriate to let some of this out. None of us out run time so I know there is a date for all of us, including those blessed with four legs and a tail.
I know the day will come when my children will enter the club of having been around for the full lifespan of our furry family members.
The list of some life experiences they haven’t yet had is shrinking but that is how it goes. There is no way around that and I am mostly ok with it but it doesn’t mean this part isn’t hard for any of us.
But I am not going to buy trouble and so I’ll wait to see what comes and deal with that. It is how life goes.
A Few More Words
That random thoughts post from yesterday was kind of fun to write, brought me back in time. Reminded me people who once walked hand in hand with me and places I used to occupy.
I don’t know about you but it feels to me like the year is flying by and even though I know a day is still 24 hours in length I wonder about it.
Wonder if maybe some being somewhere is somehow compressing time to make it move faster than normal.
Probably not happening but damn if it doesn’t feel like it and damn if I am not trying to slow it down just a bit because there are moments when you want to suck on the sweet marrow of life just as you wish to spit out the bitter.
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