Word from back home is things are better but they aren’t in a place where I am convinced I can relax but my BP is probably down a beat and that is noteworthy.
Wrote a few letters, took a few notes and considered what is and what could be.
“Are you settling for less?”
The picture didn’t answer but I wasn’t surprised because kings and queens don’t always answer a summons.
Doesn’t matter if you are wearing a shmata or your finest attire either.
Took a look at the secret kingdom and noticed it hadn’t been visited in a while and figured that would be changing soon for reasons I can explain as because I spent time clearing out space and just because.
Dad showed up in a dream last night and I know exactly why. I gave him hell and told him to do his job.
If somehow it was real and not a figment of imagination then I know he recognized all I said and the tone.
His words, his edge and my voice. That is what comes from training.
Maybe it worked, maybe that led to other things and maybe not. Maybe all that came would have anyway.
Doesn’t matter much because you can’t rely upon calling down the thunder or spirits, you can only rely on yourself.
Sometimes teenage girls find themselves at odds with a parent and angry because we have a suggestion they disagree with.
In this hypothetical situation I reminded someone I have already done what they are working on doing and been to many of the places they think they might go to.
Some things change with time but others not so much and in certain areas I am implacable.
There is no way to finesse, talk around or badger me into doing things differently.
Doesn’t matter what your relationship is, I will not bend or adjust just because you think you know something.
Gave my standard line about not wearing a sweater because you’re cold and you can think that way if it makes you feel good.
Threw in that some people start fights because it is easier to put distance between when you are angry and a couple other items too.
There are lines I hold fast to and deadlines that I adhere to. When you have been to hell and back you learn certain things about yourself.
You gain confidence in some abilities and areas you may not have had before because you know that you can.
Break my heart once, break my heart twice and maybe a third but I keep going cuz I don’t know any other way.
It is why I say love me or don’t love me, you can’t find the door in the dark if you never look.
Some say they don’t know what that means and I shrug my shoulders and tell them to figure it out.
Can’t explain or define all and don’t really need to.
In the end we all have to take steps that provide peace-of-mind. If you let it fear will not only find you, it will wreck you.
Had my battles with it more than once and am sure I will again, butkl life isn’t made for certainty.
Not set up to give you all of the answers in advance, doesn’t matter whether they are good or bad.
Still people settle for less.
They don’t give chance an opportunity because that Dutch boy who stuck their finger in the dike is there taking up space and they forget.
They forget that maybe you can live where there is no need for such measures and floods aren’t a factor.
They forget that sometimes you can take a moment to walk through the park and see what lies around the bed and on the other side of the woods.
It is possible to do so without losing what you already have and then you can determine if settling is ultimately the best option.
Maybe it makes the most sense, or maybe it doesn’t. Can’t know unless you do some exploring and some digging or so some say.
