I just murdered 350 words that spelled out a dream and a wish alongside what I am certain will happen.
Now you are left with a crazy headline and whatever else I throw down upon this page.
Unless you hold the key to the kingdom and wish to see what lies beyond and whether you go tonight or later there is no doubt you will go, though tonight seems more likely for obvious reasons.
Had a moment earlier that reminded me of a clip from a while back, made me chuckle.
What didn’t make me chuckle was realizing that if I only live as long as my father did I have 23 years left.
Twenty-three years…I have clothes older than that and I can still wear some of them.
That happy thought pushed two different buttons for me.
- I am going to push harder to take care of the few health issues I have.
- I am going to push to go hard after a few experiences and things that I want to to make sure I have done sooner than later.
If things go as I expect and hope I’ll outlive Dad by a chunk of years and I’ll be in good enough shape to appreciate it.
If they don’t go as I wish, well I’ll do my best to make peace with it.
But in the interim while I am working on it I can do my best to ensure that I get answers to some questions.
You can walk away from some challenges or run towards them and embrace the moment.
Someone told me not long ago that I am not good with complexity. I smiled and said nothing.
They looked through the screen, cocked their head to the side and asked me if I heard what they said.
“Yes, but I don’t pay attention to nonsense.”
“You think you’re good with this?”
“If it makes you feel good you can think whatever you want.”
That made their eyes bug out just a little bit and a slow sputter came from between their lips.
I fought the urge to say anything more because I saw I had struck blood and I wanted to stick the figurative shiv in a little deeper. Twist it and use the opportunity as a teaching moment, but I didn’t.
Sometimes silence is a serious hammer in its own right and what you don’t say cannot be misunderstood, twisted or misinterpreted.