I am a in a particular sort of mood, the kind where I am prepared to say anything to anyone with less diplomacy than I might were I feeling differently.
It is not the same as when I write particular letters that some read twice and let me guess what their silence means because I for damn sure know what that means.
That is a question of action but I won’t put out that fire or allow others to pretend not to put out what I know is true.
Nah, this one is tied to the hypocrisy and antisemitic behavior by people who demand Jewish support for their causes and then shake their fingers and wag their tongues when we have to defend ourselves from terrorists.
Our blood is cheap to others.
I know that and history has demonstrated it far too many times. I am of an age to have met far too many survivors and to know that some of my own family members were murdered in Europe.
And I am old enough to know stories about what my great-grandparents and their families faced in the old country.
When people say they plan on murdering Jews I pay attention and have no problem with our protecting ourselves, especially when so many have proven they would watch us be marched onto trains and trucks.
I Don’t Live In Fear
I don’t live in fear of bad things happening. I believe there are more good people than bad and I know many stories about people who took action to protect others during the Holocaust and other times.
People are good.
But I am also aware that not all are and that quite a few don’t want to be inconvenienced and will let bad things happen to others and pretend not to not notice.
It is not one of our finer attributes, but it exists.
I have no political home because I can’t trust the far left and even parts of the center left. Can’t trust the far right and parts of the center right.
Have to choose where I stand and with whom on an issue by issue basis. It is a superior way to go because it avoids some of the tribalism and partisanship we see.
It irks me to see some members of government push for support based upon religious convictions and others who know almost nothing about some issues but believe their large number of Twitter followers like hearing them parrot the beliefs of antisemites.
I hope I wasn’t as insufferable at 29 as she is, but maybe I was. Maybe I was just as blind and easily manipulated by older friends who stuffed my head with information that I didn’t vet because my friend said it was true.
Doesn’t matter if I was or not because I wasn’t in Congress than and today I don’t blindly accept much of anything.
What Happens When You Get What You Asked For?
Someone asked me what happens when you get what you asked for. I asked them how they could be so certain and they said they had a feeling.
“I don’t know exactly what happens. We can’t see everything. We can only see so much and then we have to make a choice to step forward into the mystery or let fear stop us.”
I wasn’t kidding.
There are some things you follow up on because they are worth getting answers to and some that you let go of.
The trick is to be selective, judicious and daring enough to take a chance on the right opportunity.
You might fall, but then again, you might fly.
That is what drives me. I have tasted flight and I think it is possible to do so again.
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In my head I am sitting in an empty castle taking care of this and that.
There are projects that require my attention and plenty of work to keep me busy but when I slow down I notice it is just me in there.
I see bright blue skies during the day and a million twinkling lights at night.
There is beautiful art work and music that moves me along with an incredible kitchen and library. I remember when it was more active and think it probably will be again one day.
If not I may set up shop elsewhere, hard to say. Some of that is too far down the road to say for certain and given what is going on in the outside world not something I focus on now.
Too irritated being reminded about what I already know, our blood is cheap to others.
But better to be aware and take action than to be blind and caught unprepared.
jayme
I see you. <3
Joshua Wilner
Thank you!