Last night was rough and in retrospect harder than I would have guessed but I got through it and here I am, back on the computer.
Back where I can tell you about the confessions I wrote upon this page and elsewhere, naked, heartfelt and poignant.
Some of you will go looking for them here but you won’t find it because I removed it because I decided this isn’t the place for it, there are other spots.
And let’s recall there are boundaries in blogging and I do observe some of them upon occasion.
Thaw Out
I made a decision not long ago that I was going to take some very specific actions in a couple of areas and for a while I did that.
And then I heard the bells, had some vivid dreams and felt like I was being pushed to go a different direction. For a while I ignored it and actively pushed the ding-dong and gong away but it became evident it was not to be ignored.
So I looked to the heavens and said if you expect me to do more, change, pivot and or adjust I need cooperation and waited to see if the plea was answered.
Walked a bit on the treadmill and wondered if it is case of a thaw out, issues with walls or some other complication and then pushed it out of my mind to focus on some professional challenges and strategy planning.
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Flipping back to the topic of confessions I’ll share that my kids got me a few gifts and that I am grateful for all of them but there is one that I had to force a smile for.
It is something they like and find interesting and they thought I would too but I don’t have much interest in it.
I feel badly about that, but am touched they took the time to try to do something. The effort and energy they put into it makes me feel good and I suppose it is why I also feel bad.
Because they tried hard with this one and that is a wonderful thing, but sometimes the gifts we think work don’t.
It might turn out that I am mistaken and I’ll enjoy this one, who knows.
They gave me three items and got it right with two of them, I really don’t have any complaints with them, just me.
Still a little spent from the night before.
But very happy with them and appreciative because their behavior overall shows we did something right and in a crazy year it is the little things that turn into the big ones.
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