The surprise from yesterday bled into my Monday and irked me on and off throughout the day but not as much as the sick feeling I haven’t been able to shake.
Got sandwiches Saturday night to go along with the ballgame and woke up with a sour stomach that hasn’t wanted to go away.
Asked myself the obvious question, Is it Covid?
Answered it and said probably not and it is a good thing for the virus it is not attacking me because my back is up and I am ready to go a few rounds.
Probably not a secret to some who heard me ask if they had intentionally taken leave of their senses or had suffered brain damage or some other mental malfunction.
Drank all sorts of liquids throughout the day to flush out my system but it hasn’t worked and so it seems I’ll have to just gut this out.
Won’t be the first or the last time.
Don’t Lie To Yourself
Had this conversation a few times recently with a few different people about different topics but the central focus is always the same.
“Don’t lie to yourself.”
Won’t give you all the background and reasons why these talks took place because you don’t need to know and most of you don’t care.
Hell, I am a stranger to more than a few of you including some who think they know me and have no doubt if I dropped dead you’d say one or two nice things about me and go about your lives without any interruption.
Doesn’t bother me to say it because it is true and I don’t need the world to stop because I am gone. Those closest to me will mourn an appropriate time and go back to living.
Suppose I should add that my old man made a point of stressing the same to me. “You can miss me but you’d be a fool to let that stop you from living.”
I thanked him for not providing me with a fortune and reminded him I had to work for a living.
“Blame your grandfather. He didn’t give me a fortune either.”
“Yeah, yeah. Grandpa would say the same. I am taking responsibility now for my kids and tell them it is my fault they have to work because that is the message my father really wanted me to take.”
Dad couldn’t decide whether to smile or glare so he sort of did both.
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Haven’t been stuck in the house for the full seven months because I have left from time-to-time because sometimes work required it and sometimes sanity.
But I hear some people love that kind of togetherness so maybe it is just me.
Anyhoo, looks like I am going to have to look into renting a car for some day trips or consider whether I’d put in somewhere over night.
Might be an angle around that, have to do some digging to confirm.
Suppose the good news is I have made some serious headway in a few areas and if I can manage the next few months there are some pretty good things that can happen.
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