Goodbye New Car Smell

I cannot confirm nor deny singing along with this song while at the gym today. I’ll drop the video below so that those of you who need help with the English translation can follow along if you want.

Walked into the joint wiping rain drops off of my face ready to sweat off the chaos and uncertainty of a crazy time.

Took more than a few telephone calls where I told people that if they didn’t like change they might be in the wrong place because there are things happening and you can either swim with the waves or drown.

Goodbye New Car Smell

I knew that I would say goodbye new car smell to my car as I have done every other time I have been fortunate enough to get a new one but something felt different to me about it this time.

Don’t ask me when it disappeared because I am not certain, could have been a couple of weeks ago already or maybe longer.

I drove it off the lot on December 30th so it has been a minute already. I think what throws me is how fast the time has passed.

It is mid March so it is almost a full three months that I have owned it so it makes sense but there is still this clock inside my head that is having trouble reconciling the passage of time.

Add the notes I have come across in which parents announce the 20th birthday of their sons and daughters. Those are noteworthy to me because they are my daughter’s contemporaries which means she is turning 20 this year.

Which means in a short time I will no longer be the father of any teenagers any longer. There is nothing wrong with that, it just feels surreal.

It went so fast.

Spent time on a Teams call talking with a couple of guys about how much longer we’ll have kids on the payroll and listened to a couple of the younger people snicker about the old people.

I looked at them and said that when they have buried a few friends they might feel differently. I was serious but I wasn’t trying to be snarky or mean.

It just came out and then I realized again how many people I know or should I say knew who died young.

If I go back through the past 10 years there are several fraternity brothers who died from terminal illnesses and two guys that committed suicide.

Got friends and family in Israel who were in combat or are in it now so I am lucky. I got to go to the gym again and feel the excitement that comes with that adrenaline rush.

I got to pound my chest and be happy that I am lifting a decent chunk of weight for a guy my age and that I can pay my bills.

I’ll see my daughter turn 20 and unless something crazy happens watch my children grow from young adults into the next stage of their lives.

It could be much worse, I am grateful.