One of my aunts was hit and killed by a train and though it was long before I was born I have wondered about it.
That is because everything I have heard/read makes it appear to have been her fault leading me to ask questions that can’t be answered.
Was she in a rush? Did she see the train and think she could beat it? Was she lost in thought?
There are no answers, only questions.
That is a line that describes several things in my life and part of why it is a time for letting go.
What No Longer Serves You
Somewhere around the end of October I began looking at people and things in my life with the purpose of pruning out them and that which didn’t add value in my life.
I’d like to say a voice in my head said “What no longer serves you must be removed and or let go” but I am not sure that is accurate.
Because the voice was my own and the premise I shared above makes it sound more like I was visited by someone from the world beyond or some other supernatural character.
I move from being agnostic about that to not believing it is possible at all. Given my imagination it would be easy for me to believe I just thought of it and there is nothing more.
Yet there is a tiny piece of me that says maybe there is/was something more. There are experiences that suggest maybe I ought to consider the possibility.
Even if I take that approach I am left with a gut feeling about it all that says what is meant to be will find me no matter what I do or choices I make.
If I am wrong there is no real loss because I clearing away that which clutters space in the real world and that which clutters my mind.
Maybe this leads to a renewal or rebirth of some things and maybe it leads to nails in a casket. Don’t know, can’t worry about that anymore.
When you have done all you can you have to accept the limitations of reality or let your brain melt and watch for the pieces to ooze out of your ears.
Doesn’t sound like a pleasant, entertaining or educational experience so I’ll pass.
