A Different Sort Of Mask

Years of wearing a different sort of mask can take a toll upon you and still provide you with hope that things you set in motion long before have an opportunity.

Seeds that were planted take time to grow and flowers sprout up in places that remind you they were always there among the weeds, but only if you took time to look.

They say we’ll miss all this togetherness and perhaps one day we will but there are moments where it seems we run around with hot sauce in our eyes and no one notices.

A lack of awareness, appreciation and understanding is what it is and in some cases it makes sense and in others there is no reason nor excuse for it.

All that exists is the moment to create an opportunity to make changes, some that may be long overdue.

Sometimes you wonder if people fail to recognize what is coming because the are willfully blind or truly clueless about the reality of the state.

I don’t understand some of it, not really, which is why decisions are made to prepare for opportunity to make necessary change regardless of other circumstances.

One doesn’t always require a bird in the hand to set another free because there are always other birds to be found if you so desire.

I Hear Music

Spent time working on a different blog fixing more errors and changing the editing system from Gutenberg back to the classic editor.

That felt like a mix of failure and practical application.

I made a promise to myself that I would learn how to use the block editor and didn’t dedicate enough time to doing so.

That lack of time is part of why I moved back to the classic editing system because I don’t have the extra bandwidth to push myself to learn it now.

Irks me a bit because I am certain it is not out of reach, all I need to do is apply myself but maybe this is a bad time.

Tomorrow is three major meetings and I am only certain about one of them. I have done my best to prepare for all but I don’t feel like I have done it as well as I would like.

Maybe because I don’t feel like I see the whole field with one and it feels similar to playing a game where you don’t know all of the rules.

Doesn’t mean you can’t win and do well for yourself but it does mean you might miss opportunity because you are not aware they exist.

I have made notes for myself and have reviewed and read them all multiple times but still I would like to adjust it further.

Compare it to the pick up basketball games I used to play throughout the week. If the other team was athletically superior I tried to slow things down and make them adjust.

Slow things down, see the court, and then make the smart play.

It was a very effective method but it didn’t provide a full proof solution because sometimes the other team had so much talent it didn’t make a difference.

Once we played another team where the other guys were between 6’3 and 6’6. I had to cover the guy who was 6’6 because I was the only one who had the physical strength to match up against him.

I could physically move him around the paint but I didn’t have the hops to compensate for the height difference. I tried to goad him into playing a different game and for a short while he did, but he quickly figured out not to give away his advantage.

Tomorrow doesn’t feel identical to that, but there is enough uncertainty to make me wonder. It should ultimately be ok, I’ll figure it out as I go but I would be lying if I said I didn’t want a few more details so I could better prepare.

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I hear music in my head and I see visions of a future I have expected but haven’t quite begun to fully believe in yet.

This is not the sort of post I planned on writing but it is what it is on the page now. Doesn’t cover the terrible shooting in Boulder or the ridiculous behavior in Miami.

Doesn’t cover the lies 45 is trying to spew or his enablers but that is ok because sometimes it is better to just write and use the page for a mind dump.

Use it to clear your head and see if that provides opportunity and or insight into ways to slow the game down or figure out a better way to build the pyramid.

It might and there is value in that.

Sometimes you just write here and there and see what comes of it.